blargtastical

4 38 Posted by u/blargtastical 1 day ago
For the longest time I thought I had a weird fetish... Now i
wonder if any of that feels familiar to the folk here
For the longest time I thought I had a weird fetish. Nothing too strange about it, just
being turned on by having a woman's role.
One encounter with a trans girl and a lot of thought and lurking later, I feel unusually
confused by it.
The earliest expressions of sexuality I had were in the form of an intense desire of being a
woman. I was watching some erotic tapes I dug up in my dad's tape cabinet while looking
for cartoons, and the overwhelming feeling was a mix of curiosity and envy. Eventually T
"invented" masturbation and the envy went away, but every fantasy I "went at it" with
was that of being in the woman's role.
Atsome point I realized that this was wrong and tried to align the fantasies with reality by
imagining more or less what was happening. However that just ended up with me having
fantasies along the lines of being a woman who had manifested a dick and was trying it
out, rather than any sort of a truly masculine role.
Ttried crossdressing a few times as a teen, with considerable arousal, but the idea of
being seen like that was always panic-inducing.
Inever had any sort of dysphoria or been in any way uncomfortable with being a man.
Any discomfort disappears once the sexytimes is over.
So why this might not be a fetish?